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Monday, 06 February 2012
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I Feel So Lame
I was in the grocery store, and I see an ex who I haven't really talked to or seen in about a year. I thought I was basically over him. It appears not. I almost had a panic attack in the store, all alone. It sucked. I could almost not hold back the tears. That is how fucking lame I am.
Hopefully my friends get here soon so I can frigging relax a bit more. I don't want to be alone right now, but I can't really leave the house due to having my dog here.
Saturday, 28 January 2012
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Currently
Depart from Me
By Cage
Eating it's way out of me
see relatedI need a break! Haha
Well I now know that I've been drinking too much. I drank last night and I would drift in and out of conversations, and it was so confusing. Then I fell asleep with my head on a table. Things have been getting a little out of hand and people are getting grumpy and on each others nerves. So I'm pretty sure it's time for a little break.
I will have to wait until Thursday for a real break. On Monday 3 of my pals and I are going on a road trip to Toronto and we are coming back Thursday afternoon. Then I have a concert I am going to Thursday night. I am going to be exhausted.
Right now I am exhausted. We did no go to sleep until 11AM! And my mind will not work very well today. I can barely hold a conversation with my parents.
Still life is amazing.
Friday, 27 January 2012
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Oh life how I love you
Things got a bit confusing, but that happens sometimes. I am still loving life and still having a good time. I spent two days hanging out with 3 cool people. We had a nice chill time. Then last night I hung out with my crush and my long time pal. Last night was full of ups and downs, but I think it was pretty decent. I drank a whole 26er of vodka. That's the most I've ever drank I think. I'm not even hung over today, but I do feel a bit weird. They call it DTs.
Anyways, I love life!
Also my lip and tongue are almost completely healed! Thank goodness.
Monday, 23 January 2012
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Currently
King Of The Beach
By Wavves
Post Acid
see relatedOuchies. My frigging lip!
So the one night I got drunk and I bit my lip and my tongue really hard. They swelled up so I accidentally kept biting them. Now I can barely eat or barely talk. I had to work 8 hours yesterday which required me to talk a lot, to old people. So I couldn't mumble. I was in tears all day.
I have not eaten much for about 4 days now. I feel like I'm dying. Brushing my teeth makes my tongue and lip bleed so I only am doing that once a day right now.
I came home from work last night. Fell asleep around 8pm and did stay up until 10am because I did not want to deal with the pain. This is ridiculous.
Maybe I should just drink a bunch of vodka and then the pain will die! That's what I will probably do tonight.
I wonder if I can hang out with my crush tonight if he's not too tired.
Monday, 16 January 2012
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So far So Good!
My plan of making 2012 better than 2011 has started well. I haven't really done much, but I have spent probably 10 days hanging out with people. I have seen people I have not seen for years. I motivated myself to drive 2 hours away to go see my friend. I also got her to come out of her comfort zone to go to a Chinese restaurant called "Kum Jug". My friends here in my city told me about it and I just had to check it out.
It really has been a good experience letting go of all the old stresses that kept me down. Just got to live life, and try to be happy. Of course every day is not going to be awesome, but a lot of them can be if you just let go.
I am so happy I realized all of this so that I did not let being dumped by someone who I thought was right for me. Now I realize that he was not right for me seeing as all he wanted to do was stay in, play video games, watch movies, go to the gym and sometimes go out for dinner. He didn't care if he saw his friends and always wondered why I said I missed my friends. Sometimes it is good to see people. It's more than just MSN. Most of my friends don't even use MSN.
There is this band that I am so in love with they make me feel good.
Green eyes, I'd run away with you!
Also I have a new crush. He's cute. Hehe.
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- Name: xjadersx
- Birthday: 11/21/1989
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 8/27/2008
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I am Jade. A young female trying to learn how to take life as it comes. I am trying to be more like my father. He is one of the most amazing guys you'll ever meet. No matter how shitty life gets, he just smiles and keeps going. No matter how many brick walls I hit I will keep on going. The Wile E Coyote way of life.
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